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i'm more vulnerable then i'd like to be than i'd like to admit than i'd like to know you can make me [Jun. 30th, 2006|11:09 pm]
godmommy
[Tags|, ]
[mood |restlessrestless/crushed/contemplative]

"you know what would fun?"

"what?"

"If you could go in Linen's and things and buy one of everything for our house"

"It'd be nice if there was money"

"It'd be nice if there was a house"

"Yeah"*

*the thought in my head: "and sometimes it'd be nice if there was an us"

You breathed infinity into my world
And time was lost up in a cloud and in a whirl.
We dug a hole in the cool grey earth and lay there for the night.
Then you said, "wait for me we'll fly the wind,
We'll grow old and you'll be stronger without him" but oh,
Now my world is at your feet. I was lost and I was found,
But I was alive and now I've drowned.
So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me I was wrong...

But they weren't there beneath your stare,
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare of
Any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...
So I couldn't say "no".

You sighed and I was lost in you, weeks could've past for all I knew.
You were there blanket of the over-world and so I couldn't say,
I wouldn't say "no". But they all said, "you're too young to even know,
Just don't let it grow and you'll be stronger without him"
But oh, now, my world is at your feet. I was lost and I was found,
But I was alive and now I've drowned.
So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me I was wrong...

But they weren't there beneath your stare,
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
Of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...

But they weren't there beneath your stare,
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
Of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...
So I couldn't say "no".

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(no subject) [Jun. 15th, 2006|06:18 pm]
godmommy
[mood |ecstaticecstatic and in-love]

Just a day,
Just an ordinary day.
Just trying to get by.
Just a boy,
Just an ordinary boy.
But he was looking to the sky.
And as he ask if I would come along
I started to realize
That everyday you find
Just what he's looking for,
Like a shooting star he shines.

He said take my hand,
Live while you can
Don't you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words
Although they did not feel
For I felt what I had not felt before
You'd swear those words could heal.
And as I looked up into those eyes
His vision borrows mine.
And I know he's no stranger,
For I feel I've held him for all of time.

And he said take my hand,
Live while you can
Don't you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand
In the palm of your hand.

Please come with me,
See what I see.
Touch the stars for time will not flee.
Time will not flee.
Can you see?

Just a dream, just an ordinary dream.
As I wake in bed
And the boy, that ordinary boy
Or was it all in my head?
Did he ask if I would come along
It all seemed so real.
But as I looked to the door,
I saw that boy standing there with a deal.

And he said take my hand,
Live while you can,
Don't you see all your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand
In the palm of your hand,
In the palm of your hand.

Just a day, just an ordinary day
Just trying to get by.
Just a boy,
Just an ordinary boy.
But he was looking to the sky.

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(no subject) [Jun. 12th, 2006|04:27 pm]
godmommy

Polar opposites

 

 I want you both

 

I think I need you both

 

 

 

But if you’re happy

 

 I’ll leave you be

 

One I won’t dare push

 

 If that’s truly where you want to be

 

But the other

 

 Always gives the same answer

 

The right thing

 

At the wrong time

 

Is the wrong thing

 

 And you may be right

 

But then when is the right time?

 

I don’t know if I can wait until then

 

Being in your arms for brief moments

 

And never wanting to leave

 

But forcing myself to let go

 

 You’re tearing at my soul

 

And yet I think I love you

 

 

 

 

 

 

But I can’t have either one of you

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My Internal War [Jun. 12th, 2006|03:26 pm]
godmommy
[Tags|, ]
[mood |restlessrestless/rejected/desperate]
[music |evanesence]

i see you in the hall
i go running towards you
you are the reason i get up in the morning
then whack! i get hit on the head
in judgment by a friend
all for you
we sit talking
three minutes of bliss
but the bell must toll
and you tear at my soul
bam! my head goes flying
and makes impact with my locker
we joke around
my soul flying high
i can smile without having to lie
you look into my eyes and see my core
wham! i've fallen on the floor
i'm fighting for control of my life
my body not just for me
but a battle ground
the meeting place
for more than 2 forces' war paths
Darkness creeping in
begging to destroy and manipulate
but the light just as strong not letting that be my fate
water flooding from unknown sources
tears longing to be wiped
rescued and carried off into the night
the forest just wanting love and companionship
even in something as simple as friendship
the fire circling all else
threatening to destroy all
being proud and independent
in my heart of fire you could not make a dent
destroying all evidence of a former heart
one more easily shattered
and left in the wind to be tattered
flames grow and dance feeding all that's thrown its way
not waiting for love to come another day
ice shooting out now
wanting to freeze everything in motion
and to forget even the slightest notion
only in my sleep
do i wake from this nightmare
a time when all elements let me rest and not care
i look up from where i lie
all i want is just to die
i want to reach out and ask for your help
but i will not
because you are the reason for myself murder
and the cause of my forced suicide
but don't change for me
i'll just live with my internal war
just free-falling
please ignore my calling
(i love you)
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(no subject) [Jun. 10th, 2006|05:32 pm]
godmommy
[Tags|, ]
[mood |restlessrestless and not content]
[music |evanescence]

you don't remember me but i remember you
i lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
and dream i do...

i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me

have you forgotten all i know
and all we had?
you saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand
i knew you loved me then

i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me

i look in the mirror and see your face
if i look deep enough
so many things inside that are just like you are taking over

i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me

i believe in you
i'll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you're taking over me

Taking over me
Your Taking Over Me
Taking over me
Taking over me
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(no subject) [May. 31st, 2006|07:41 pm]
godmommy
[Tags|]
[mood |predatorypredatory]

hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

i'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there

say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black
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(no subject) [May. 1st, 2006|09:07 pm]
godmommy
[Tags|]
[mood |morosemorose]

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
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(no subject) [May. 1st, 2006|08:50 pm]
godmommy
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[mood |crushedcrushed]

I'm so tired of being here.
opressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave.
cause your presence still lingers here,
and it won't leave me alone.

These wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase
.

(chrous)
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.


You used to captivate me by your resonating light,
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts, my once pleasant dreams
Your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.

These wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase
.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me,
I've been alone all along.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.
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(no subject) [May. 1st, 2006|07:56 pm]
godmommy
[Tags|, ]
[mood |restlessrestless + yet strangely calm]

answer, just one question for me, who do you think i am?
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(no subject) [Apr. 23rd, 2006|09:31 pm]
godmommy
[Tags|]
[mood |predatoryalive/predatory]
[music |"the show must go on" moulin rouge]

   have you been 

WHERE ANGELS   FEAR TO TREAD? 


i have

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